My World.

I love...

1. The way you say “I love you” and I know you mean it.

2. When I catch you looking at me with that adoring smile on your face.

3. How I can be 100% myself when I’m around you.

4. The way you never let me down.

5. Falling asleep in your arms.

6. How you know exactly what to say and when to say it.

7. How we can cuddle up and enjoy any film together just because we are in each others arms.

8. How we can’t spend a day apart without missing the hell outta each other.

9. How we can be so comfortable in silence.

10. You’re hugs.

11. You’re so kind.

12. How, although it scares me, you’ve become my security blanket. It’s hard for me to even fall asleep anymore without you to curl up into, without a big arm wrapped around me protectively.I won’t be able to fall asleep for quite a while...until you come home.

13. The way you’re such a worry bear!

14. When you left a rose on my door step. Made me cry like a baby.

15. How I knew you were the one for me the first moment I met you.

16. When I walk away, you follow me.

17. When you tell me you miss me.

18. Those puppy eyes you’ve got!
19. How we can spend a whole day laughing together.

20. How I feel incomplete when you’re not with me.

21. That you seem to always look forward to talking to me.

22. The little notes you write me on my wall.

23. Your taste in music.

24. How you’ve always got a beanie on. You look so adorable:)

25. You’re soo polite.

26. How you can make me smile even when I’m upset.

27. Our inside jokes that no one gets.

28. How we miss each other before we’re even gone.

29. Nothing could ever come between us.

30. When you sing along to your favorite songs. :)

31. Your kisses.

32. That you let me wear your favorite t-shirts to bed.

33. You never give up.

34. The first time you told me you loved me.

35. How we can share our secrets.

36. How I can come to you with every single little problem and you’ll make things better.

37. You understand me better than anyone else.

38. You make me feel warm inside.

39. How our minds are some how connected.

40. Every time I see you it feels like I’m falling in love all over again.

41. Your adorable texts.

42. That we can tell each other everything.

43. How you make me feel beautiful.

44. The way you comfort me when i’m upset.

45. Skyping with you.

46. You still give me butterflies whenever I see your face on skype.

47. Our Kush adventure.

48. How we can be total weirdos together!

49. Your arms;)

50. Your love for doggies;)

51. You say im perfect even though im not. Only perfect for you.

52. How we are so random together.

53. You're so different then any of the other guys i know.

54. How you know you're the best.

55. How you open up about everything to me.

56. How there is never a dull moment when we're together.

57. You always want to be by my side.

58. You're not ashamed to call me your girlfriend.

59. How you saved my life.

60. How you dance naked:)

61. You help me through all my tough times.

62. How we trust each other, i hope.

63. How you put up with my bitchy moments.

64. How intelligent you are.

65. How comfortable i am sleeping with you.

66. How you like my flaws.

67. You never judge me.

68. How you kiss me as soon as you wake up.

69. How you wanna marry me.

70. How you arent afraid to speak your mind.

71. The way you never want to hurt me.

72. How you gave me a necklace, so i can look down and know i have a man that truly cares about me.

73. How you always go out of your way to see me.

74. Our cuddles.

75. How you don’t want to lose me.

76.The smile when I’m doing something retarded.

77. How you drive...even though you scare me...i love it:)

78. Your winks...

79. How you'll take crazy pictures with me.

80. How you can handle my crazy/strong personality.

81. How your hand fits mine perfectly.

82. How you still squeeze me tight even while you sleep.

83. How you always look forward to making things better everyday.

84. Your silly hand gestures when you listen to music.

85. How you’re super funny.

86. How you call me your baby.

87. Your dougie.

88. You are constantly doing the sweetest and most thoughtful things for me and want nothing in return except to be appreciated. I don’t just appreciate you...I know you are the most precious thing that I have ever been able to call mine.

89. You're fearless.

90. The way you can leave me breathless.

91. How you wrestle around with me.

92. When i get mad you pull me to you and kiss me.

93. How you never compare me to anyone, you just love me for me.

94. How you've got me falling in love with you more and more every day.

95. You have a good heart.

96. Gorgeous eyes.

97. How you’re more like me and understand me better than anyone I’ve ever known.

98. When you let everyone on facebook know that you're thinkin of me and missing me.

99. How when i'm crying and upset, you're willing to just hold me and tell me it will be okay.

100. You’re basically my whole entire life and I could not imagine being without you!  I love YOU. And ONLY you. Always and Forever.

UT vs. OU!

Michelle knocked on my bedroom door one day after she got home from work. She told me she was looking online and saw that the Texas Longhorns vs. Oklahoma Sooner’s game still had tickets for sale. I asked her how much and she said they were around $300. I thought to myself, “Yeah, that’s not happening. I don’t even spend $300 on myself in a month.” After a minute of silence she told me that she had a feeling the price would go down as it got closer to the game. This is something I’ve always wanted to do. Ever since I would eat wings and watch the game with my dad, I’ve always wanted to stand in the stadium with my fellow Longhorn fans. This is something Austin wanted to do as well, so we had planned on going together when he came home for good.

Hook Em'!

In front of the Cotton Bowl!

The tickets dropped from $300 to $100 in just two days. Michelle decided to surprise Nick and take him to the game. We bought the tickets and told Nick we were meeting up with some friends to tailgate at the stadium. I knew that if I didn’t go with Michelle and Nick, I would hear all about it for a long time. I caved and went with them. I could tell Austin was upset he wasn’t able to go, especially since this was something we wanted to do together. I’ll admit, it was a crappy thing to do, but I really wanted to go. I’ve put everything aside for him and this is just something that I decided last minute. There will be plenty of other things to do together when he comes home.

Supporting our Longhorns!

Watching the game! Or more like taking pictures!

That Friday night I went to Rally House to buy a cute UT dress! I see how decked out people get at these games so I wanted to fit in! The dress was $40, it was not exactly within my price range but I bought it anyways. I just told myself I would not buy another dress for a while. I was able to use my Longhorn earrings Nick bought me for Christmas as well as a new orange and white, studded bracelet! I was set! Michelle bought us some Longhorn tattoos to stick on as well.

Waiting for the game to start!

Before the game we spent our time walking around the fair. 

We had a blast!

Michelle and i looking over the stadium!

We lost the game. *tear* However, i still had a ton of fun. I can't wait to experience this with Austin, because i'm sure he'll appreciate it more than i do.

Early Two Year Anniversary Celebration? Yes.

Austin won't be home for our two year anniversary. *Tears* We decided to celebrate our anniversary early. We went to Olive Garden. Of course! It was where he asked me out two years ago, it was perfect. I always enjoy coming here with him. We have the best conversations when we go out to eat! 

We spent the rest of the day walking through this park near the restaurant. It was beautiful! It had a lake and a bunch of trees! Everyone was walking their dogs so we just strayed to the side. It was nice walking around with him. We even carved our names on this bridge!

I love him!

Austin standing on the bridge where we carved our names!

The look i gave Austin when he said, "Let me take pictures of you."

I had to leave Washington on sunday. I always drag the day i'm supposed to leave. We don't know when we'll see each other next. We aren't able to save money because i always come see him. I pay for plane tickets and he pays for hotels and other activities. We're going to try and wait out the next 10 months. We need to start saving our money so we can buy a house or apartment when he comes home. Which is less than a year away. 

Leaving Washington.

Flying into LA!

California Coast Line!

Overall, my trip was a success! I don't know when i'll be back but i hope it's soon because i miss Austin already!

Military Ball 2012!

I made my way to Seattle for the MP Military Ball! We didn't get a chance to go last year so this year i was determined to! What girl would pass up an evening to get dressed up with a soldier? Not this one! I bought this dress that was $125.00 not including alterations. But i just fell in love with it. I knew it would go perfectly with Austin's dress blues! 

The ball was held at the Hotel Murano. Austin bought us a room for the four days i was there. I love this hotel. It's one of the nicest ones i've stayed in. The bed is huge and so comfortable, the bathroom is always clean, the lobby looks the a museum and they let you wear 100 dollar bath robes!

The ball was on October 5th at 6:30 in the evening. We spent the day enjoying each others company and getting ready. Austin was kind enough to help me curl my hair. He secretly enjoyed it! Here's a few pictures we took before the ball started. We met up with some of his friends and i got to see Kailene!

Indira and I



Austin and his friends.

  The ball was everything i imagined. I had heard enough stories on the internet of wifes and women showing up in short dresses, or having too much cleavage hanging out. I saw a few that caught my eye. Kailene and i secretly made eye contact with each other as if to say, "Do you see that woman? Why would she wear that?" I mean any woman in their right mind would know not to wear a short dress or at least a dress that wasn't too revealing!

My date. :)

We looked great together!

Before the ball started everyone spend their time socializing, drink in hand.  We spent our time taking pictures! I needed as many pictures as i could get! I didn't bring my camera because it was too bulky but i got a few good shots off of my phone. 

Lisa & Chrissie!

Kailene took pictures with me!

The night began with long speeches, awards and honorable mentions. I tried to listen as best i could but i really had no idea what they were talking about. I watched the other wives as they knew exactly what to say and do the entire time. I was the newbie. I didn't know what to do or how to stand. I just watched and finally got the hang of it. God forbid i embarrass Austin at any point! I was determined to prevent that from happening! 

Munoz & Rollins

Kidd & Muckle!

We ate dinner, drank some wine and chit chatted with the other couples. Austin was such a gentleman the entire night. He introduced me to everyone as his fiance, which gave me butterflies! Austin got his drink on towards the end of the night. Especially when they made this mixed drink. It was basically all types of liquor mixed in a bowl. I tried it but didn't really care for it. Austin drank it as if it was water!

Dayne & Kailene!

During the middle of the ball i had to go back to the hotel room and take of my dress. It was literally suffocating me to the point where i started feeling dizzy. Austin walked me back to the room and unzipped me. I instantly felt better and sat there for a few minutes. Once i gathered myself we headed back down to the rest of the group. 

From Left to Right: Dayne, Lisa, Chrissie, Laura, Kailene, Me, Indira, Virginia

The girl everyone was making fun of. This is why you don't get drunk at a military function.

 After the ball we made our way to Bobby's house. Everyone was there and it was an overall good time. I really enjoyed myself, and Austin could tell! So i think that made him happy to know that i was getting along with his friends. Chrissie made me lemonade and vodka. It was not too bad if you ask me! I barely tasted the alcohol and i knew she poured a ton in the glass before mixing it with lemonade! To sum it up, i got drunk. Not the i'm-so-drunk-i'm-about-to-puke drunk. It was more of a light buzz until Chrissie and Laura decided i needed more alcohol because they didn't want to drink anymore. 

My first and last Military Ball experience was a success! I was so happy to have met Austin's higher up's and fellow soldiers! It was a great night!

Life Lessons from HIMYM

Nothing good happens after 2A.M.

Don’t chase after what doesn’t work. Let the universe take over.

Things happen for a reason.

Don’t ever give up crazy times with your friends.

Miracles happen.

Things you make not have liked before may not be that bad later on.

Perfect isn’t always perfect.

Some people have expiration dates.

Wait for it.

Don’t postpone joy.

The most important moments shouldn’t be wasted, because you can’t get them back.

Be clear about the things you say.

The most important people in your life are the ones you can picture sitting on a porch with.

The talk is one of the worst things ever, but it is important.

You’re not looking for someone who accepts your quirks. You’re looking for someone who loves them, cherishes them, and loves you more as a person because of them.

Some people are worth a lot of work to keep around.

Get out of the house, go for a walk, get a bagel.

14 Thought's on 50 Shades of Grey

I don't really even know where to begin this one...

I know I'm like the 5th million blogger to write about this but I just kind of really need to get my thoughts out there on this one. And since I don't really know anyone in real life I can discuss it with, you get to read all about it. Unless of course you decide to just skip this one. Which is okay with me. Kind of.

1) The writing wasn't quite as awful as I thought it was going to be...

2) The author is in serious need of a thesaurus. How many can one character say "murmur" "jeez" and "oh my", seriously?

3) Also, commas. You missed a lot of them.

4) I find it seriously hard to believe that a college girl didn't have a cell phone and a computer. It's 2012, ya know?

5) Last but not least: Dear authors of the world, please research an area before you write a novel set there.

6) It's pretty obvious this was a fan fiction.

7) Naive alert: I didn't even know half the "toys" they used were real things.

8) Likewise, people actually do that shit? I mean, no judgement but I might have some questions for you.

9) Also, people read this book in public? You, public reading friends, have guts.

10) Older people saying they've read this book, and couldn't put it down, just makes me really awkward. Sorry, but I just don't need to know that.

11) A movie, out of this? Really, Hollywood? Unless they changed A LOT of what happens in the book, it'll end up in the back room of Family Video. Just sayin'

12) On that note... Wentworth Miller for Christian? Anyone?

13) No? I'll also take Ryan Gosling. Though that might be too much to handle for me.

14) Also, the entire time, whenever Taylor was mentioned all I could think of was Hector Elizondo in The Princess Diaries - he might be getting too old for the role now though.

That's all I have for now friends... if you've read it let me know so we can shamelessly talk about it.

5 people you need to stop stressing about

Your Ex: There’s a reason they are called “exes” and not “currents”. They were in your life, now they’re not. End of story. Look at a tough break up as a chance to grow as a person, and be thankful for all the emotions you are feeling. At least you are feeling something, and that is beautiful.

Your “Best Friend”: Giving someone the label of “best friend” puts a lot of pressure on your interactions. Often times they will disappoint you. Just enjoy the friendship of this person, enjoy the good, leave the bad and get on with living.

Your Arch Nemesis: Everyone has a person that really grinds their gears. Perhaps they stabbed you in the back; maybe you just hated them from the start. Too often, we are forced to interact with this person in one capacity or another. Stop wasting your emotional energy on this person and redirect into bettering yourself. Through improving yourself you will be able to approach your nemesis in a healthy way.

Your Relationship: You really like/love this person. A lot. Sometimes you feel consumed by thinking about them. They are everything you think you want. And you are terrified. Nothing is a turn off like desperation, so stop stressing about your love interest and let things play out how they may. Even if things go horribly, you will have saved yourself a lot of mental anguish in the process.

Yourself: No one stresses you out more than yourself. Your faults, your quirks, your hopes, dreams, failures and successes can all be a source of stress. It is important to consider a larger idea when going through your day to day life: Am I doing what I need to be in order to be happy? I'm just saying.

The Rubber Band Theory

You’ve probably heard of the book, Men Are From Mars, Women Are From Venus by John Gray. I read the book a few months ago and while I thought a lot of it was a bunch of hooey, there is still one concept that I’ve carried with me ever since reading it.

It’s called the Rubber Band Theory. It plays on the idea that like a rubber band, the man will start to want his space and pull back. Instead of chasing after him, the woman should let him have his space, and maybe even pull back a bit herself. With this space comes tension, just like you would see when you pull a rubber band in two separate directions. But the further you pull the rubber band apart, the more strongly it will come together creating an even closer relationship.

At first I thought this was an odd concept. Why would you want to pull away? But then I realized, the opposite of pulling away is when you cling on and seek even more attention=not good. There’s probably nothing more annoying to a guy when a girl is at his beckoning call, waiting, practically begging for his attention. Being a little mysterious, or better yet, being independent is much more attractive than being a girl who has nothing better with her time than to sit around and wait for some of his attention.

It’s not always easy to live like this but I think our relationships will ultimately be happier when we’re not so dependent. Our happiness shouldn’t have to come from our partner–it should come from within. Now hopefully I can take my own medicine!